After failing 5 interviews, I actually feel relieved

Facts, adapting is seriously scary lol. At first, even one text would wreck me, but now when a notification comes in, I just go "oh, again" and keep eating.

But that’s being numb—it’s a bit different from feeling unburdened, isn’t it... I only realized this after failing more than 20 times: it wasn’t that I wasn’t hurting, but that I’d lost the strength to feel the pain. Even if you look okay now, it can blow up badly all at once, so at least once a week, set aside a day where you just do nothing. That’s the real shield.

If it's 5 times, how many months have you been grinding at this? I only started seeing my resume pass rate and interview question patterns after failing 12 times over 3 months. Have you tried writing down the characteristics of the companies that rejected you? Surprisingly, a pattern emerged where I kept getting stuck at the same places, and once I fixed that, my odds shot way up.

Well, that’s a bit much. Isn’t it less that you’ve adapted and more that you’ve just gone numb? If you stay like that for a few more months, you’ll see the next job posting and feel nothing, and you won’t even apply. You need at least one person you can open up to.

Oh, I didn’t know this. I’m at exactly that stage right now, so I was confused about whether this is growth or paralysis, but reading the comments helped me sort it out a bit.