A thought that crossed my mind while coding at dawn

Then why isn't sitting back down in the morning the right answer? Honestly, isn't that the right answer? The fun comes later; habit comes first. This reads like some post pretending to be self-reflection, but there's not much to it.

Any source?

Facts

Every time I see posts like this, I can't help but laugh at how people get all emotional at dawn and draw conclusions about their entire life lol. Just get some sleep and write it again tomorrow. By then, you won't feel a thing.

That's because it's dawn lol. Sitting there during the day feels different too.

I wonder if “I do it because it’s fun” really has to be true. For me, I just kept doing it because I felt more anxious when I didn’t. Not because I liked it, but because I felt like I’d lose something of myself if I let it go. So these days I don’t even ask myself whether it’s fun. Instead, I only look at “how many lines did I write today?”

Same here. At first I did it because it was fun, but after about three years, fun didn’t matter anymore—my body just moved on its own. I still don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.

I get where you're coming from, but I'm a bit worried. If "it's not about doing it because it's fun" hardens into the only right answer, that's the stage right before burnout. I held out like that for two years, and then even looking at code made me feel sick, so I completely stepped away for six months. I'm back at it now, and I wonder why I put off taking a break back then. If it's not fun, it's okay to take a break. Seriously.